FUCK titles

I had an ENTIRE fuckin blog ready about how i was at work and i opened a box full of mirrors and tripped out cause i thought i was IN the box or something, and it was pretty good too. But looking over it, its just not me. I couldnt help but think to myself, "FUCK alex, YOUVE LOST IT!"
Gone are the days of yogurt cups and centapides, now i am tied down with friends, girlfriends, and "emoooootions". What the hell happened? i used to be a loser too! HONEST! I used to be able to talk about nothing and keep people happy all day. BUT NO! Im not funny anymore, now i have REAL things to talk about. NOW i am "GRACED" with the oppurtunity to talk about how one of my BEST friends is never going to talk to me again. and WHY?!? BECAUSE I decided to, INSTEAD of STAYING IN THE SAFE CONFINES of my room, up and LEAVE at 6 in the morning TO BE SPONTANEOUS and BUS IT UP TO A FUCKING TOWN IVE NEVER EVEN BEEN TO! WELL FUCK! NEVER AGAIN. i was WAY funnier before i grew faith in the world and i liked it. My anger and bitterness kept me warm. But NOW i have "FRIEDNS". NOW i can see the BEAUTIFUL side of the world. I mean HERES a person who i could COUNT on calling me everynight just to talk with and vent to. BEST friend I ever had, and what do I DO? i FUCK IT UP LIKE ITS A KID WHO LEARNED THE ALPHABET BACKWARDS!
Dont get me wrong, this isnt without its life lesson, but in the end, NO lesson is worth what i lost. I would GLADLY cut off my pinky finger just to prove a POINT to this person. But decapitation isnt always enough. No, i could hurl myself into a combine harvester and STILL not make things better. So what do i do? i LIVE with it. i LIVE with a scar that will never heal. Like IM prometheus and THEYRE THOUGHT is the eagle that comes down and feasts on my liver EVERY DAY. SO there. Maybe a piece of funny alex died or maybe the world just got a little darker itself. Its like the comedian said, "Once you realize what a joke everything is, being the Comedian is the only thing that makes sense." and i agree. Fuck taking things seriously and screw getting attached. Now all i need to do is figure out what to do with these two CN Tower tickets...